The hard thing about college is being away from home. If something happens, it can be hard for people to get back home to deal with it.
Last night, I went to hang out with some people, and when I came back to my room, I found a text message from a friend back home saying another friend had died.
I felt like it couldn't be real. Like, I'm not home, so there's no way he could possibly be gone. I didn't get to say goodbye.
He was 17, and died in a motorcycle accident, going 80 MPH down a back road when a car pulled out in front of him. He hit the car and flipped over it.
Death is hard enough to deal with as it is, but being away from home....it's worse. How do you get back for services? How do you cope? Yes, friends can be great and be there for you, but that doesn't always help.
My home is only about 40 minutes away from Milwaukee, but I can't get back to go to the funeral. That makes it so much harder. There's absolutely no closure. You can "pretend", and say goodbye here, but it's not the same.
I still haven't accepted it, I don't think. I wasn't particularly close to this person, but it's still upsetting. I've known him for 4 years, and now he's just....gone.